It feels like a heavy weight has been shifted from your shoulders, when you stop giving and blaming things on destiny and take charge of your own circumstances and life. So far i have just been harping about how fate gives you a chance to create life bla bla but i think it is right now at this very moment when i actually can say, i believe in it. And its a pretty pleasant feeling than having to depend on fate all the time. We were not given a free thinking mind for no reason so when the time comes to make a decision about your very own life you run away casually bury your head in the ground and pray for the right thing or whatever to happen.
The very reason your mind exists is for you to make the right decision or choice. I think i made myself pretty clear. Moving on, yes its an uplifting feeling knowing you are the creator of your own life, you have choices to make and at the end of the day you will feel good knowing you made the decision for yourself. You only crib and cry about something which is not in your hands right? So if you go by this take control for the best possible outcome, you can never actually feel sad about being let down by your circumstances because in your heart of hearts you feel responsible and owe it to the choice you made.
So why am i stating the obvious? Maybe ive had a moment one of those times when you know whats right and yet you do not have anything around you which makes you believe in it. But then something happened, it could be as simple as waking up in the morning and looking outside the window with the sun beaming and suddenly everything makes sense to you. Or it could be someone saying what you already knew but hearing it from them somehow makes more sense at that very moment and your faith in it is restored. Its about being sure and having faith in your own beliefs and thoughts, beliefs which you know exist deep down there but need a little reassuring here and there. The sun the sea the wind blowing in your hair or the chains of smoke you carefully watch swirl around as you breathe out contain such power. The power to make you realize what is inside you and when everything around you makes complete sense for that given moment. You and I have that power. Have a little faith, the universe is looking out for you, to create your own reasons :)
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
Thursday, January 21, 2010
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I don’t understand how I got here. I don’t even understand the whole process which turned me into this. Yes there is someone out there screaming his lungs out saying “I love you” and I look at him with disbelief. Aren’t these three words what make us live life? Or at least used to. No I am not afraid to be happy or love and be loved in return. This is what we live for; this is the moment we all wait for. And yet when the moment comes knocking at our door, we turn away doubting it, suspecting it to be one of the many games the universe plays with us. We wait and wait for something to happen which will prove our doubts correct only to find in the end, they were wrong. We waste our time doubting doubts instead of living the chance life is giving to us right now at this very moment. I don’t know the reason which created this wall in front of me, I feel like I am turning into my worst nightmare and it is not a good feeling.
Why is it so hard for me to trust my instincts and beliefs? Why do I doubt my own certainty? I’ve lived so long for this moment to love and be loved in return and it’s out there screaming, claiming its hold and the only thing I am doing is holding back.
Why is it so hard for me to trust my instincts and beliefs? Why do I doubt my own certainty? I’ve lived so long for this moment to love and be loved in return and it’s out there screaming, claiming its hold and the only thing I am doing is holding back.
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
Living in Fear or Certainty?
“People haven't stopped wanting to be in love, they just don't believe in a happy ending anymore. They still believe in love and falling in love, but they know now that...romances almost never end as well as they begin" - Shantaram
Why is it so hard for a human mind to stop delving into its past and start living in the present? Certain things happen to us so that we can learn and grow from them. Yes we do learn, we do grow, but at the back of our mind we also tend to create a certain mind block which keeps going back and forth and cautions us and keeps reminding us of what had happened and if we're not careful this time, we may as well go back in time and relive those not so very happy moments and lessons again. It isn't a very pretty sight to be living in.
Back to love and romance. So yes we all almost have been hurt at least once (or more) in our lives when it comes to loving someone. Either you were cheated on, betrayed or things could not work out for whatever reasons. Yea yea whatever happens is for the best...but do you honestly think about that when it is actually happening to you in that very moment? How do you find the best in the worst situation? You don't. I am a part believer of fate and a firm believer of make your own destiny. Becuase if you do want something to work out, you will make it happen. But sometimes what you want is not what your loved one would want, hence the clash. And no matter how much we get over it or however long back that happened, these are memories and lessons which never leave us and continue to haunt us in all our present relationships, ones which are being formed and the ones which will in the future.
No two people are alike - I used to find myself often saying. But why have I become a victim of constant comparison between my present and my past? Just like two people, no two moments are alike - this is your present and that was your past. It was your past for a reason. Your present is a moment to live in right now for a reason as well. A moment you only dreamt about. You cannot come to terms with the fact that it is actually happening to you, hence you cannot deal with it and make up every excuse to doubt it. It does not come with an instruction manual - life does not. Fate gives you a chance and you have to create life out of it. Otherwise the moment will pass by. It comes as a test of time and faith and to put into action all your thoughts of how you believed it could be.
Trust yourself and believe in yourself. It is far more important than trusting someone else first. It is about your capability to be able to give into something and someone which could turn out to be the most beautiful time of your life. Having certainty in oneself and not looking for it in the other.
Why is it so hard for a human mind to stop delving into its past and start living in the present? Certain things happen to us so that we can learn and grow from them. Yes we do learn, we do grow, but at the back of our mind we also tend to create a certain mind block which keeps going back and forth and cautions us and keeps reminding us of what had happened and if we're not careful this time, we may as well go back in time and relive those not so very happy moments and lessons again. It isn't a very pretty sight to be living in.
Back to love and romance. So yes we all almost have been hurt at least once (or more) in our lives when it comes to loving someone. Either you were cheated on, betrayed or things could not work out for whatever reasons. Yea yea whatever happens is for the best...but do you honestly think about that when it is actually happening to you in that very moment? How do you find the best in the worst situation? You don't. I am a part believer of fate and a firm believer of make your own destiny. Becuase if you do want something to work out, you will make it happen. But sometimes what you want is not what your loved one would want, hence the clash. And no matter how much we get over it or however long back that happened, these are memories and lessons which never leave us and continue to haunt us in all our present relationships, ones which are being formed and the ones which will in the future.
No two people are alike - I used to find myself often saying. But why have I become a victim of constant comparison between my present and my past? Just like two people, no two moments are alike - this is your present and that was your past. It was your past for a reason. Your present is a moment to live in right now for a reason as well. A moment you only dreamt about. You cannot come to terms with the fact that it is actually happening to you, hence you cannot deal with it and make up every excuse to doubt it. It does not come with an instruction manual - life does not. Fate gives you a chance and you have to create life out of it. Otherwise the moment will pass by. It comes as a test of time and faith and to put into action all your thoughts of how you believed it could be.
Trust yourself and believe in yourself. It is far more important than trusting someone else first. It is about your capability to be able to give into something and someone which could turn out to be the most beautiful time of your life. Having certainty in oneself and not looking for it in the other.
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