It is so easy to get caught in the web of life or circumstances,routine our life and being utterly and completely selfish. How often do we actually look back and thank life and the people who came along the way and contributed in their own way into making us what we are today? How easy is it for us to be ungrateful of what life brings to us rather than thanking everyone who is etched into our very own being and soul of the person that we are right now at this very moment. My state of mind right now? - Happy and Thankful to these people without who i would not be who i am today.
My sister - for opening up a world of knowledge to me, sharing and believing that I too had the potential despite the generation gap we hold and never easily giving up on me with the excuse of me being immature. My father - for making me believe in my individuality and that I had the potential to realize every dream i dreamt and constantly supporting me in helping me make all my dreams come true. My mother - for never judging me by the company I held and placing a blinding trust in me. Never ever giving up on me despite my shortcomings and being the greatest support without being ashamed of the mistakes her daughter made.
My best friend for showing me how to live life and enjoy every moment and to value friendships and relationships. For being by my side, being the guy in my life when I needed one and making me realize life is too short to be anything but happy.Oh and opening up a whole world of illegal and immoral things to me and savouring the goodness they contain ;)
My oldest childhood buddy - for listening to me through my constant moments of pmsing, being my partner in crime, making me realize my own potential I had as a human being. And for being utterly patient. For laughing with me without anyone else around us understanding a word of our conversation, whiling away time, sitting next to me without uttering a word and making me feel completely understood in those moments of silence.
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
Monday, February 8, 2010
Forever is a paradox
Forever is a concept of NOW, the very present moment.
Forver is 'a moment of eternity' - Ironic? yes.
Forever is not measured by the promise of the future it swears to live by or the extra number of seconds, hours, weeks, months or years it consists of. It is because so very often we experience 'forever' in just a split second. The feeling of forever is contained in that powerful moment which makes you believe you are capable of just about anything and the world is yours to conqueor. It is ironic - how a word that talks about spanning over a vast frame of time only lasts for as long as you make it.
Like they say nothing lasts forever!
Forver is 'a moment of eternity' - Ironic? yes.
Forever is not measured by the promise of the future it swears to live by or the extra number of seconds, hours, weeks, months or years it consists of. It is because so very often we experience 'forever' in just a split second. The feeling of forever is contained in that powerful moment which makes you believe you are capable of just about anything and the world is yours to conqueor. It is ironic - how a word that talks about spanning over a vast frame of time only lasts for as long as you make it.
Like they say nothing lasts forever!
Sunday, February 7, 2010
No 'right' or 'wrong'
I've been pondering over this for quite sometime. Its funny how a state of being in drunken/stoned stupor gets your mind thinking and sometimes even leads to making some very profound life changing decisions.
Why were these two words actually invented? So that we continue to justify our own doings against the others? Is it a mode of human defence mechanism, egotism or simply excuses we make when we do not have any answers? How easy is it for us and others to compartmentalize everything into 'right' and 'wrong' based solely on our individual perceptions. The human mind can travel as far as you let it, yet we try and control everything that is contained within and limit ourselves from actually experiencing what it is capable of. Jumping to conclusions based on our own assumptions is far easier than actually viewing everything from a detached perspective. Judging someone is far easier than giving them the benefit of doubt. Its not about values/morals against the right and wrong, because clearly how do you even define those? Everythig is pretty individualistic around us yet we always blind ourselves and continue to bask in our own ignorance pretending and pacifying our egos that we do know the 'best'.
Why is it so difficult for us to separate our reality from the others or even realize there is no such thing as 'REALITY' and everything is indeed what we create in our own mind. If we actually go by this, there is no need to define anything because it all boils down to one thing, which is we make our own definations and live by them.
Why were these two words actually invented? So that we continue to justify our own doings against the others? Is it a mode of human defence mechanism, egotism or simply excuses we make when we do not have any answers? How easy is it for us and others to compartmentalize everything into 'right' and 'wrong' based solely on our individual perceptions. The human mind can travel as far as you let it, yet we try and control everything that is contained within and limit ourselves from actually experiencing what it is capable of. Jumping to conclusions based on our own assumptions is far easier than actually viewing everything from a detached perspective. Judging someone is far easier than giving them the benefit of doubt. Its not about values/morals against the right and wrong, because clearly how do you even define those? Everythig is pretty individualistic around us yet we always blind ourselves and continue to bask in our own ignorance pretending and pacifying our egos that we do know the 'best'.
Why is it so difficult for us to separate our reality from the others or even realize there is no such thing as 'REALITY' and everything is indeed what we create in our own mind. If we actually go by this, there is no need to define anything because it all boils down to one thing, which is we make our own definations and live by them.
Monday, February 1, 2010
Cranky,moody,irritable and its not even that day of the month
No its not...I wish i could put my finger on what it is and then retrack every step i took to get here and quickly erase everything so that i dont end up feeling how i am right now.
Its funny how last week went by - romance i devoured myself in, making myself believe at least this would last. Or not?
I hate how i feel right now, i hate everything around me including myself because i am mad at myself for getting here. Mad at myself for being such a child believing in what everyone else said around me, letting it get to me and for a moment believing maybe it could be different.
But its not, its the same story everytime, they run after you, you run away, then you get close and run after them and they run away. I knew everything in that head of mine yet i shut myself to everything and let life take its control over me. This is exactly what happens when you let go, you lose yourself and you do not know to what.
I want my answers and I demand them.
Its funny how last week went by - romance i devoured myself in, making myself believe at least this would last. Or not?
I hate how i feel right now, i hate everything around me including myself because i am mad at myself for getting here. Mad at myself for being such a child believing in what everyone else said around me, letting it get to me and for a moment believing maybe it could be different.
But its not, its the same story everytime, they run after you, you run away, then you get close and run after them and they run away. I knew everything in that head of mine yet i shut myself to everything and let life take its control over me. This is exactly what happens when you let go, you lose yourself and you do not know to what.
I want my answers and I demand them.
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